That’s what I’ll call today. I did manage to get up and get writing early. I was clocked in and writing by 7:41 am. I wish I could say that this was through some great level of self-motivation, but it was not. I had trouble sleeping. I woke up at 5:45 (ON A SATURDAY!), dozed ’til 6:15, tossed and turned in denial until 6:45, and then got up.
I had my coffee, breakfast eaten, and all of my procrastination out-of-the-way by 7:41, so I really had nothing else to do but start writing.
(This is the day time version of the same spot as last night’s picture.)
Since the weather was perfect, I planted myself back in the same spot I was last night and started writing. That’s the good news. The bad news was that since I didn’t sleep well last night, by 9:30 I was through three cups of coffee and nodding off as I read my own novel. So I took a nap. That killed two hours. But I did feel better after I got up.
The afternoon was decent, but I did have to take a walk to sort out my dismay. You see I had hoped to make tremendous progress today and around 2:45 pm (GMT -4), I was only about 68 pages in out of 533 (you can check my progress here). Editing goes exponentially slower than reading, I don’t think I need to explain that, but I didn’t think I would be going page by page through the whole book in June. I figured out last night that I needed to and I still think it’s the right idea. The dismay stemmed from the back of the envelope math which told me that I needed at least 30 more hours to finish the draft (and I haven’t even hit the hardest parts). At this pace, I need to average 2 hours a day every day for the rest of the month.
Not impossible. But not easy. And not what I was hoping for. Of course, this process is anything but a straight line.
I don’t think that I can do two hours a day most days and I have my son the next two consecutive weekends, which will make a big weekend difficult. So, it’s an open question right now whether or not I can really muscle through this by the end of June. That said, the first week of July I am off thanks to a company shut down, so I’ve got that week to make up some ground.
Overall, I am feeling a little daunted (again), but actually better. The big positive take away for me is that after 87 pages of straight editing I feel more engaged in the work than I have since probably March. I think that’s what I’ve really most needed. Now we’ll see if I can turn that back into the consistent daily engagement and progress I was making a few months ago.